So its been a long week. Running around with the kids, working, home, etc. But the real reason its been such a LONG week for me is the fact that this week I've been confronted by death and what it means in many different ways. You know the saying that death comes in threes? Well for me this week it has. Sadly a neighbor and close friend of my husband just lost his brother to a car accident this past Saturday. Then on Monday I get the news that a classmate of my youngest daughter in pre-k, also died in a separate car accident. Finally on Tuesday, the day I randomly decided to call my sons high school guidance counselor and leave a message, I come home to get the news that she was not in the office because her husband passed away that morning. I feel horrible for all these different families and what they are going through.
All this week I've been hearing different views on life and death and how important it is to go after what you want while you have the chance. Also about how important it is to tell people how much you love them when you can because there is never any guarantee that you will live to see another day. These are all things I know I have heard in the past and I try my best to at least make sure I tell my husband and children that I love them so much every day.
It does however make me realize that although sometimes I feel as if I have alot on my plate, I can still do so much more. At least I think I have the potential to achieve much more and to be a better version of myself. I joke often about "super moms". These are the women who seem to do everything so well and organized and stylish. Whose children look like they are ready for a fashion shoot and appear to be headed to any ivy league college on a full scholarship. I look at myself and try to console myself by saying how much more "realistic" I am and how I'm doing a damn good job especially considering my background and circumstances.
What I've come to realize after this week however is that I am capable of doing much more. Ive been making excuses for not doing all the things I want and should be doing. I have done a good job but I want to look back at my life and say to myself that I did a GREAT job. I still have goals and dreams and I want to make myself proud. I know my husband and kids are already proud of me but I have something to prove to myself. I really have to appreciate everything I have but make a real effort to improve on myself and my surroundings and what I have to offer. Most of all I need to stop taking time for granted. I cant put things off for later. I have to get started now. So off I go. Talk to you soon!
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